Mr. Smith and I had to put our big boy Loki to sleep this afternoon. It's just not fair. We didn't have enough time to be a family of four. I volunteered for years at an animal shelter in Sarasota for years and would tell grieving pet owners that society as a whole underestimates the value of a pet and relationships we form with our four-legged fur babies. But today when I slunk out of work to go bury Mr. Loki, I found myself making excuses for my tears and calling myself a baby for not being able to stay at my desk.
This morning I picked up his dish and cried while I washed it and put it in cupboard. It's not fair. Just a few weeks ago, I was so happy to take the dish out, blow off the dust and present it full of kitten kibble to Olive.
I have a set of rules I try to live by, and one of them is "Never expect the world to be safe or life to be fair." It so totally sucks when it's true. Another rule is "Always buy clothes that make you feel like doing a small dance." I like living by that rule more often.
He was a good boy. He lived longer than we thought he would. He wasn't in pain or uncomfortable long. I am confident we made the right decision, but I hate making decisions that make me sad.
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| here he is when i was sick last winter. he didn't leave my side. |
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| we both are a fan of naps |
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| a pic of all of us in bed when we were still a family of three |
It's just not fair.
I am so aware lately of how unfair life truly is. The passage of time is kind of frightening. I'm so sorry for your family's loss. Loki will be missed. Love you guys and sending hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteOh, sweet Megan. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Gosh, how hard that is. I had to put Elmo the poodle down seven months ago and I sobbed like a baby for several days. Don't be ashamed of your tears. It means you loved Loki very much. Glad you have Olive. Love and blessings to you all in the Smith household.
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